It isn't enough to be moved by others; I want to move myself. I want to have a power of expression that can influence the death inside my own being, far before having influence over anyone else. I tell myself that only boring people get bored, then redefine this apathy of mind to get around it. Still, my state is what it is, and I am a static object, less useful than the chair I happen to be sitting in.
Why don't I just create something?
What would I create?
What's worth creating?
What would creating even do?